Oh god.

I was moping about today feeling so, so sorry for myself.

I get home.
One a certain forum that is to do with self harm, I read a post... of the most nightmarish sort of trauma ever. I admire that person so much. I believe that it was real, I don't see that it would be made up... it didn't seem like a troll.

I'd never ever claim to feel as bad as people who've been through stuff as bad as that, but really, it makes any other problems seem so insignificant in comparison. Other people have NO problems in comparison to that, not just problems of a far lesser nature.

I think everyone should read something like that every now and again, to serve as a sort of reminder to not get too self-pitying.

Went to the psychiatrist. Have "severe depression." Got questioned on lots of stuff. Was given fluoxetine. Was encouraged to take a break from school, but I do not want to get behind. I am disorganised enough as it is, let alone having that much work to catch up on. She says it will still be under review, though. I have another appointment with her in two weeks, and she will make therapy appointments every week instead of every fortnight. She says they should monitor me closely - and my mum should keep the fluoxetine away from me... She is scared I might do something with it. She asked random bits of information about everything, from school to shelly and from hearing voices (No) to making myself sick. (No.)
I was able to talk, sort of. In answer to her questions. Then suddenly I was unable again.
I cant believe I said no when she talked about a break from school... but I know that if I did take a break I would regret it. I dont know how long she meant... a day? week? I dont know.

Wisdominlyrics - This morning I took away the entry that I posted last night, because I was embarrassed about it. It doesn't mean that I didn't read your reply - I did, thankyou so much.

I really mean that.

Module 1 results:

Biology    97
Chemistry    100
Physics    98

Those are UMS scores, not percentages. The percentages are translated into UMS scores somehow. A* is a score of 90 or over. Three A*s! Yay. ^^

Next two exams in each science will be harder.

Write! Write! Write!

&Record. I must write here
more. ^^

hospital last night

It seems that Kitty is now 100% sure about those hotdogs. I think he's a very irresponsible policeman, though, for encouraging her to steal from the groceries store. But she's very grown up and so I shall respect the decisions of both.